This has been a weird week on so many levels which is why I only got one blog post up. It started off with me being so exhausted for no reason... I could barely get anything done on Monday and then the rest of the week kind of got away from me.

Then there was yesterday... ugh. My primary care doctor wanted me to go for a brain MRI because I've been getting severe migraines for the past year or so. They have gotten better with prescription meds but she still wanted me to go. I am extremely claustrophobic and have been since I was a teenager. 

That claustrophobia usually results in a very bad panic attack; in the past, I've only ever felt claustrophobic when I'm in very crowded spaces, like buses, planes, or a really crowded bar. I've walked out of bars before because I can't handle the crowd and I don't want to cause a scene. 

I've never been in an enclosed space by myself before but I figured I'd be nervous having an MRI. I tried to tell myself I wouldn't be because I was alone and would have my eyes closed. Well, I was severely wrong. I went for the MRI Thursday morning, got into the machine and within 2 seconds, squeezed the emergency button to have the MRI tech come in and take me out of the machine. I had such a huge panic attack, was hysterical crying, and basically ran out of the radiology building without getting the MRI. It was truly traumatizing and I can't even think about what it felt like to be in that machine without crying. I never want to experience that again. 

Partner that with the idea that there's something really wrong with me and you've got an anxious disaster. I'm trying not to focus on that though and hopefully will be able to figure out something with my PCP to get a different kind of MRI so I'm not in an enclosed space. 

With all that being said, Royally Pink's anniversary is next week and I've been wanting to plan something for it, but it's going to rain all weekend so I might not be able to shoot the content I wanted.. we'll see! Either way there will be something special! I'm also excited for the long weekend, even though the weather here in New York will be terrible. I'll make the most of it regardless of the weather! 

Let's dive into the wrap up! 

Pink Positivity of the Week

I did some solid work this week for my 'real job' and I'm really proud of myself for what I did. It's been a rough few months but I've grown into myself and have taken on more responsibility which is always a milestone! 

Links I Loved

What You Missed on Royally Pink

I only posted once and that was 'How I Care For My Mental Health'

What I Bought This Week

Have a great long weekend everyone!
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