I'm writing this as I'm curled up in bed, coming down from a panic attack & watching Hocus Pocus, while eating apple pie.
Got a good picture in your head?
Well, I just hit rock bottom with my money situation. After a rather rough week, I've hit the edge and jumped off the cliff. I feel helpless and lost, and it's effecting me greatly.
I got crazy for a minute tonight, talked it out with my mom and sat down making 100 budgets for myself.
Do I feel better? Yes, but that doesn't change the fact that I need to stop spending money and need to save. I can't get 4 packages delivered to my house every other day. I have too much stuff, and it's not healthy.
It's not smart either.
I'm 23 years old and ruining my credit score, and my financial well being.
I've never been this frank and blunt about my financial struggle here, because well, it's a blog & you only show the good stuff. I show you what I buy, not why I buy or the buyers remorse that comes afterwards.
But right now I'm raw & real, and talking about the one thing that causes me a lot of anxiety and unhappiness.
I can't really form coherent thoughts about money right now, so I will leave you with this: