The panic is completely overwhelming and quite frankly, I cannot handle it.
However, that's not why I've been absent. I got broke up with last week and I've been completely preoccupied with my feelings and trying to figure out what went wrong. I was blindsided and didn't see it coming, and I'm in a lot of pain. I thought I knew what heartbreak was but I can confidently say I have never felt anything like this before. I feel like there is a hole in my chest and an ache I cannot subdue. I don't think I'd wish this kind of heartbreak on my worst enemy.
Mix that up with the climate of the world, a broken family from my aunt's death in January, and general life anxieties and I'm just not in a good place.
Even with the virus and the fact that the nation is under a state of emergency, I'm hoping that the week at home will do me some good. Maybe I'll be able to find some peace, get some sort of normalcy while relaxing and decompressing.
I haven't been myself for the past two weeks; I've been really depressed and anxious. I can't stop crying -- it's just bad. I haven't blogged, haven't done any sort of self-care and really don't feel like myself. The good news? I've finished three books! There is nothing like the escape of a good book.
As horrible as the coronavirus is, that has been a distraction as well. I wasn't really that concerned until Wednesday night, I think that's when a lot of people started to really take it seriously. Of course, I practiced basic hygiene (I always do) but I started to get nervous after they canceled the NBA season, for some reason. It's a very strange time in the world and I just hope everything calms down soon.
Being at home this week, I hope I can back on a blogging schedule and throw myself into creating content. I think it'll be good for me but I can't promise anything.
I hope you all stay safe and healthy, please practice social distancing!
Now, for the links!
Links I Loved
- Wellness products with a cult following
- An expert's guide to using Vitamin C
- The best moisturizers on the market, I especially love the Botanics Simply Calm cream
- French girl beauty is my obsession
- How to work from home during the pandemic
- Are you doing these unproductive habits??
I haven't posted so there's nothing to update you on!
What I Bought
My stress buying is in full force but I am trying to be better. The no-buy has been pretty nonexistent.
I bought two books I've been dying to read, She Said (about the Harvey Weinstein case) and Average is the New Awesome. With everything going on right now, I needed some relief so I picked up some more CBD gummies from Sunday Scaries. Some of the below purchases were replacements (like my bras, sunscreen, and SLIP scrunchies); others were sheer want like a new Lele Sadoughi headband. Every day I try to get better and I will get back on track with my no-buy, I have too. The good news is that I continue to pay off debt!
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