I've done variations of this sort of post in the past but I figured I could start fresh now and title this post the way it should be titled.

As someone who deals with anxiety and depression, I find there are few things that make me happy. I am constantly saying that I don't know what true happiness feels like, but does anyone really? Of course, I get happy when I'm with my friends and family (if I'm in a good mood) but in my life, what really brings me joy? What does being happy really feel like?

When will I feel that?

It sounds really sad when you hear me say that ... in person at least because it's very upsetting to think that someone doesn't know true happiness. This isn't a new feeling -- I've been feeling it for quite a while, so long in fact that I wrote a blog post about it back in 2015. 

Things have gotten better since then, though and I've learned to make myself happy through little joys that I seek out daily.

What Makes Me Happy

1. Babies: This is so weird but I have such baby fever it's quite alarming. My Godson is 2 years old and my cousin just had another baby a few weeks ago and there is nothing I love more than playing with him and making him laugh. I love following celebrities and bloggers with babies because their laughs and smiles and funny ways just bring so much happiness to my day. There is nothing as pure as a child and honestly, it makes me so, so happy.

2. Coffee: Besides being the reason I wake up in the morning, coffee and all coffee related things fill me with so much joy. I love the look of coffee, the smell, and the taste; I love shirts that say "But First Coffee" and cheeky things like that. I don't know what it is but it is a weakness of mine and I love it!

3. Disney: Since I was a child, Disney had a special place in my heart. They were my favorite movies and the earliest memory I have is Sleeping Beauty and Winnie the Pooh. As I got older I've embraced being the adult who loves Disney and I don't really care if that's corny. Disney brings me more joy than other everyday things; when I went to Disney last year with work, it was truly one of the happiest days of my life. I don't remember the last time I was that happy, for that long. Whether it's a Disney Instagram account, a quick clip of a movie or looking at all the items on DisneyStore.com

4. Cozy nights: This is my perfect night. I come home, don't touch my computer, turn my lights off, light a candle and turn on my twinkle lights; I get under the covers and my room is ice cold. I watch TV, scroll on Instagram or read a book. That is pure joy and one of my favorite things in the world.

What are the little things that make you happy?
xoxo
B

A lot of you took well to my last Tuesday Inspiration and it got me thinking to kind of revamp the series. I used to just post a quote and be done with it, because that was an easy way to convince myself I was posting 4-5 times a week.

Well, now I guess I use them more as a ranting/venting platform with a little insight thrown in.

I've been thinking a lot of lately, of just being me, like I spoke about the last time. I kind of realized that I have no patience or time for things or people that do not make me happy. I have zero time to tend to people who add nothing but stress or anxiety to my life.

I realized this as I was looking through all my social media and was annoyed by a lot of what I saw. You know how some people just get under your skin and you step back and ask yourself why you're still following them?

That's what happened... and I went on an unfollowing spree. It felt good, therapeutic almost. I was following people that I felt I needed to follow, because it's a courtesy, because at one point we were friends. Well now I don't know anything about you so bye bye!

Why do we still follow people on social media that add nothing to our lives?

It got me thinking further...

Why do we keep people in our lives that just add stress & anxiety? If you're not gaining anything from the friendship or relationship, why are you bothering to keep it afloat?

I don't think I have too many people like that in my life, but there are a few and maybe it doesn't have to be a permanent break. Maybe it's just a break for a few days to get your mind settled, maybe it's a week because you just need some space.

Either way, we need to take more time for ourselves to make us happy & do what we want, instead of what you feel like you need to do.

If you can't deal with a text message right now, don't reply immediately. Let it sit there. People do it to you.

Now, I don't mean start being an asshole to all your friends, but realize what you need & what makes you happy for once.

I'm the type of person who really thinks about other people's feelings before my own so if someone is annoying me, I won't stay away because I'm afraid of confrontation or I feel bad not answering the person. I'm a people pleaser by heart.

Lately though, I've been trying to put that on hold and realize what makes me happy and what annoys me... and trying to stay away from the annoyances in order to keep my happiness afloat.

Does anyone else feel this way or am I just a bitch?

Let's end things on a positive note: