Waiting...In Singleness

Aside from some sorority posts, career aspirations, and a mention of a roommate here or there, I don't get too personal on the blog.

To me, getting personal isn't really necessary, it's not something I like to do. This blog is a place where I could explore my ideas and my interests. To me, Royally Pink isn't a diary. 

Think of that as a bit of a disclaimer because I am going to get a teeny tiny bit personal.

Hi I'm Briana and I'm single.

Yes, I am not in a relationship; just like millions of other girls in the world. Am I happy about it, no, not so much. Believe it or not, I've never been in a relationship and I think that is the one thing that really discontents me.

Everyone I know has had at least one serious relationship. I'm 20 years old; don't you think I should've hopped on that train already? It's embarrassing to me and not something I like to throw around, so it's taking a lot for me to write it on the internet.

With being single, comes waiting. Waiting for something exciting to happen; waiting for that love at first sight, the one that will change it all. I've been doing a lot of waiting for the past few years.

As a creative soul, I cling to outlets that let me live the way I want to live: movies, books, TV, and my own writings. I am lured to intense love stories with star crossed lovers, one glance across the dance floor, and intense love revelations.

I love a good love story; I am a sucker for romance and maybe that is the reason I'm single. Maybe the reason no one has ever come along is because I focus too much on it.

Isn't that always the case? Don't people always tell you that when you stop looking for love, it'll find you. I've seen it happen with my own eyes; hell, it has happened to me in the most unexpected ways. 

The problem is, I can't not think about it. I think about love more than once a day and I can't figure out if that's normal or if I'm just kind of crazy. I think about love so much, I have a whole Pinterest board dedicated to it. 

Another saying that you constantly hear being associated with love is "Don't forget to fall in love with yourself first", or some variation of that phrase. The thing is, I am in love with myself. No one is ever going to be 100% content with their life but I'm nearly there.

I've been saying it for a while: I'm happy with everything in my life. I have a great internship, wonderful friends, a fun social life, VP of Phi Sig, and my home life is as good as it could be right now--everything in my life is in place. The only thing that is missing is a boyfriend.

Why do you need men to be happy? That's the question usually on everyone's mind and it's true. Why do we want a boyfriend? If I'm happy with everything else, why should having a guy in my life turn that all around?

I'm human! It's human nature--that's why. Having a boyfriend isn't making my happiness, it's adding to it.

Like I said before, I have a soft spot for romance. I love a good romantic quote or saying, something to get your mind racing and thinking about love. I'm big on words, if you haven't figured it out by now so reading a great saying is wonderful.

The bottom line is, no matter what happens in life, you are always going to crave human relationships. I shouldn't be ashamed that I haven't found the one yet--most 20 year olds haven't. I shouldn't be embarrassed that I want a boyfriend in my life or that I am a hopeless romantic.

I don't know when or where or how I'm going to meet "the one" so for now, I'll just sit around and wait.

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